I lack spine, I know

[rikke_leonhart]

Dear anon commenter(s) on Moments, Learn You Inside Out, Stars and various drawings,

I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it, but when you continously comment on my non-locked posts, drawings and fics, and keep on being anonymous, I'll just address it here and hope you read it. If not, tough, not my problem.
First of all, feel free to think of me as a nasty bitch, you're entirely entitled to your own opinions. Feel free to think my writing sucks and that my drawings are bad, though you contradict yourself a lot when you say what you do.
For example, you say, "You always say that your drawings are bad, even though you know they aren't."
Aha, earlier, you said I should stop posting them because they're ugly and now you say that I'm aware they are good. Make up your mind.
Secondly, you want me to stop deluding myself with thinking that people here actually like me. Now, I know for a fact that at least some of them like me, but take that up with my flist if you feel like it. They would, probably, not have friended me if they thought I was the biggest idiot in the universe.
Thirdly - you say I'm sick and a twisted fuck, and that I'm hiding my true and ugly self from my flist. And why?
"You write twincest and you hide it. The people on your f-list doesn't know who you are."
Eeeeeeh. It doesn't exactly take a genius to find my old fic-journal. You found it, didn't you?
I don't feel like I've been hiding that fact, seeing as the fics have been posted publicly at more than one place. I cannot stress enough that it's purely fiction and that if I ever saw a pair of twins make out, I would probably freak the fuck out. It's fantasies, we're all entitled to have them.
If the internetz disturbs you, get out, seriously.

Lastly - I don't really get why you feel the need to comment and tell me, repeatedly, how much you hate my black guts. Seriously, feel free to think I'm the spawn of Satan and hope I burn in hell, I honestly don't give a flying fuck what you think of me, but it worries me that you bother to comment on eight posts. You need a life. OR Arashi in your life.
Possibly both.
If you have a problem with me, can't stand me or my presence here, then what the hell are you even doing in my journal? That's just being masochistic.
Honestly, cheer up a bit. Search for Kitto Daijoubu on Youtube.

Love, Rikke.

 

THAT SAID, I MISS YOU SO MUCH, FLIST.

And in case you didn't know before this, yes, I wrote twincest, and yes, I read it. Not secret. If you want to de-friend me, go ahead.

How have you all been?
I know I've been horrible in getting back to you and checking up on you lately, but there's seriously not enough time! Anyone in possession of a time turner?

And I just bought the t-shirt TH designed for the Fashion Against Aids campaign - it's very pretty, actually.

*hugs you all*

/Runs off to Japanese class

Comments

[kos-mos26.livejournal.com]

First and foremost...despite that we haven't really known each other for long...or had much conversation that wasn't flail, I can tell you're a great person.

Secondly...I know what it's like to get attacked like this. (Admittedly the cases were different, I was accused of writing rape and passing it off as romance) but I know how much it sucks to have people tearing your work apart maliciously. It’s one thing to get constructive criticism, it’s quite another to have to read blatant hate spam with no purpose other then to demoralize you. Am I wrong for thinking this person seems to really have it out for you and is just hell-bent on knocking you over? Granted I knew who my attackers were and can avoid them on lj now, but they're really hiding behind anonymous? That's just pusillanimity.

Though I personally can't say I enjoy twincest, I respect that lots of people have it as fantasies. Hell one of my fantasies is Nino/Ohno/Nino so that's kinda in the same ballpark. I will never understand the judgmental people who are so quick hate, and there seems to be more and more of them on the internet these days. You're right, they DO need more Arashi in their lives. Ah that's it...I bet the annony person is a Kat-tun fan.

Ah...what I'm trying to say is, don't let it get you down. You do have lots of Lj friends (which you already know) and you have even more talent in all of your projects be it art or fic-writing.

*gives you Ohmiya cuddling in a box in case you need a pick-me-up too*

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Thank you, and you, too. Though I must admit, I love flailing with you!!

I only discovered the rape-thing long after it had blown over, but I thought that it was overreaction.
It's not even that they are tearing my fics apart, they just generalize everything and tell me that every word from me is the worst thing they've ever read. I think that the worst part is that they can't specifically tell me what they dislike, but that they just choose to hate everything.
Honestly, I can respect if people don't like me, my opinions and my work. I don't necessarily require to know the reason, but it's nice to know.

But I absolutely cannot respect the fact that they don't even stand by their opinions and go anon. That's just pathetic.

They accused my of believing myself to be a BNF, but seriously, uuuh, how about NO?
That's just about the most riduclous thing I've ever heard.
rofl, am I so famous I get to have my own personal hater?

I've always prided myself for being open-minded about people's fantasies, and though I don't always get the same treatment, it would be nice. I mean, I don't care if people don't like it, there's always the choice of reading and not reading. If they have got their panties in a twist over twincest (and my version isn't even graphic) they get a shock when they visit the rest of the internet.
I agree, people are so quick to hate these days. Why so much hatin'? ;;__;;
I bet you're right, perhaps they've read one of my numerous "I REALLY REALLY CAN'T STAND AKANISHI"-comments and that set them off?

I'm so thankful of my amazing flist, and of course, for you too. Thank you for your support, it means a lot to me that I have friends like you to support me.

*loves the Ohmiya cuddling*

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

*Jumps in* - *waves hello* - I think we ought to have "Been there Done that ... and Stronger" t-shirts!!!

*showers love on the Kosmos!" by the way ... pusillanimity. An awesome word and can I show my ignorance and ask what it means please! Hee no time no time to look it up for myself!!!

[kailice.livejournal.com]

*Jumps in with you* pusillanimity means cowardly :)

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

ahhh thank you! What an awesome awesome word!!! See one silver lining from anon.b.s ... I learnt something new. And that is always a good thing!!!

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

You guys are seriously the best xD