Fic: Drabble

[rikke_leonhart]

No, I don't have a hangover today.
And no, this is not Oraya. And it's not Ohno/Nino  either, and no, I'm not ill XD

Title: Hold Me Tight/Break Me Down
Pairing(s): Ohno/?
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 685
Summary: "He's not going to wait around for you forever," Nino had said into his ear on New Year's Eve.
Author's Notes: For cris_kanaschiro because she's awesome ♥


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“He’s not going to wait around for you forever,” Nino had said into his ear on New Year’s Eve.

He’d been watching Ohno from across the room, watching the smaller man smile and talk and enjoy himself. They’d caught each other’s eye more than once.

Nino’s words had shaken him, but not surprised him.

Bound by reluctance, by friendship, by other people and especially by fear, he’d been holding back and hiding for a long time. Expectations, his own and others’, relationships, more or less serious – he’d been hiding behind that, knowing and seeing how it affected others, how it affected Ohno.

Ohno was of the firm belief that love was love and if all he could get from him was friendship, then he’d be satisfied with that. He’d made that clear by standing by his side through rough break ups, through drunken calls and when he’d made sure that he got home from wherever he’d ended up.

Sometimes, he didn’t think he deserved Ohno.

Not when he was this scared.

But Ohno’s steady presence was constant, supporting him, and he was relying on that, more than he realized.

But now Nino had told him what he needed to hear.

“Satoshi-kun,” he said, grabbing Ohno’s arms and backing him into the apartment. Ohno made a surprised sound at the back of his throat, and he whimpered when he collided with a wall.

“I’m so sorry,” he said, hoping that it’d be the words Ohno needed to hear. He pressed closer and kissed Ohno, feeling the smaller man going rigid against him.

This wasn’t right. Ohno wasn’t responding.

Slender hands pressed against his chest, pushing him away, but he wouldn’t have it.

“I’m in love with you,” he confessed, letting Ohno breathe, and he watched as shock settled in before resignation did. “I love you.”

Ohno’s hands settled on the nape of his neck. “No, you don’t.”

He frowned. “I do! I really do! Listen to me, I’m in love with you!”

Ohno smiled sadly, petting his hair. “You’re so shitfaced.”

He was hurt. “I’m not! I’m really not, I just want you.”

Sighing, Ohno continued smiling that sad smile of his. “Let’s get you to bed and sleep it off.”

“I’m not drunk,” he resisted, “smell my breath.”

More or less unsettled, Ohno shook his head and held on to his arm, tugging gently at him and leading him towards the bedroom. He felt feverish where Ohno held him to guide him, and he watched as Ohno looked him over before reaching up to push his jacket off.

“I’m not drunk,” he repeated, grabbing Ohno’s wrists, denying the smaller man more actions.

Ohno looked so unsure in that moment that he regretted being so slow. He slowly leaned down, happy that Ohno didn’t flinch away, connecting their lips again.

Ohno’s resistance was crumbling, he was sure of it, but he knew he hadn’t ever given Ohno any reason to let him anywhere near him.

“I really do,” he whispered, pressing a lingering kiss on Ohno’s mouth. He looked at Ohno, “I’m just so scared.”

“I love you,” Ohno’s lips were parted a bit, his lips wet and glistening, raising his eyes so they could meet.

He felt like sobbing. “I’m so scared you’ll bail on me. Like, you’ll just stop or something.”

“I’ve been afraid of that for years,” Ohno revealed with a shaky voice. “It hasn’t happened yet.”

He kissed Ohno again, sucking gently on those pouty lips, coaxing him to respond, to kiss back. He could taste the reluctance, the fear of getting hurt, and he vowed to prove Ohno’s fears unfounded. He could be who Ohno needed.

And he set out with body and words to prove it, physically and emotionally, because with how Ohno had supported him for so long without expecting even a single word of gratitude, he knew he had a lot to do. It would take time to rebuild what he’d broken down and to build upon that would be even harder.

He might fall, but he had a feeling that Ohno wouldn’t let him fall too far.

*
/End

AN: I'll leave you to guess who it is :)

Comments

[zukkoke-iero.livejournal.com]

*sigh*
So real...
Love it <3

Argh, guessing tim~e!
Ohno and gackt?
Ohno and Sho?
*cant think of anything else*
XD

[haruchaan.livejournal.com]

I'm terrible and haven't had time to catch up with your previous posts.. ;;______;;

BUT THIS. I'll take it as Sho/Jun. Sho calls him Satoshi-kun more often than not, but somehow images of Jun kept flashing in my mind. 8D Its good to use our imaginations.

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

ROFL NO NOT GACKT/OHNO XD

Well...I won't say who I think it is, it's better if you just draw your own conclusions :)
Thank you :)

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

It's okay, darling, you really don't have to - I write entirely too much XD

Ah, well, I'd feel better if you just draw your own conclusions to this :)

Thank you ♥

[cris-kanaschiro.livejournal.com]

How can you say I'm awesome after writing this? And for me? ♥

Oh *faints*

And you even wrote my last name correctly! ♥♥♥
(that's nothing to do with the fic, but I care, so thank you!)

At first, I was kinda surprised it was not Ohno/Nino, but after fully reading it... Oh Sho ♥

I'm 100% it's Sho, he's the only one who calls Ohno by 'Satoshi-kun'; and "...smell my breath.", I definitely cracked myself out by this sentence, and I can't picture anyone but Sho saying it, it's so... Sakurai Sho ♥♥

Sometimes I get tired of these little ♥s, but I can't think of anyway else to show how much I love you and your geniality and your Ohno. ♥♥♥♥♥

Thank you so much for sharing, you're simply amazing, really. ♥
(but still, can't do any cheerleader dance, sorry. After that, I'll start practicing!)

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Of course it's for you, darling ♥
And can I just say that I'm proud of spelling your name correctly in the first try and without checking it? :D

Well, sometimes I like to write something other than Ohno/Nino because so much of my writing is centered around them, and while I will neither confirm or deny that it's Sho, I'll just say that you know I have a certain soft spot for Yama-pair :)

Well, I never tire of getting hearts, so ♥

You're welcome, darling, and I'll be looking forward to your cheerleading ♥

[cris-kanaschiro.livejournal.com]

Oh please, be proud, you have the right to be. Even my Mom, sometimes she writes it wrong (she's probably aging)

I know you do! *remembers 'Ending Credits'*
Yama Pair deserves LOTS and LOTS of ♥s!

I just love your Ohno and I know you already know that, but there's something I do love in your writings as much as I love Ohno. There are some characteristics that most of time, people let them pass by when I think they're so important. One of them is Sho's "Satoshi-kun", that simple characteristic is what makes me think that in real life, Sho cares for Ohno more than Nino does! ♥♥♥

Anyway, the point is that I simply love your writings! ♥

Again, thank you so much. ♥

And be prepared to get blind when you see me cheerleadeing! XD

[kailice.livejournal.com]

Very pretty <3 It seems Yama pair-ish to me, so I'm sticking with that! :)

Oh, and yay Owl City! :D

[turtle-ai.livejournal.com]

...This was beautiful. :D I smiled through the whole thing.

I don't care who the heck it was, though I did come to my own conclusions about the situation, but it was so beautiful. Really, it kind of made my day, since my day was really crappy. >__<

I love your work. ♥ And you, too. :D

[wannatee-1984.livejournal.com]

YOU! I LOVE YOU YAMAPAIRALHDKLAFHLKSDHFK;AAAAAAAAAA;bb <3

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

*sigh* - Love you! *clings*

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Interesting how the general opinion is that it's Sho. Hmm.

Yes, Owl City indeed ♥

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Thank you :D

Oh, so you do have some guesses...who do you think it is?
I'm glad that it could brighten your day a bit ♥

ilu2, bb ♥

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

AND I LOVE YOU 8D

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Love you, too *hugs*

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

Just because ... well it IS his birthday (where I am anyways and Japan is only one hour ahead of us here) tomorrow ...

Here have a miracle boy. (I forgot to say it was an instant reaction to this! ^_^) But that's just me!

*hugs* I'm tootling off to bed now after 5 loads of washing.... it's nearly 4 am the next three days are going to be INSANE!!!)

Have a helluva Christmas. And you will have a great and beautiful one because I say so! Love it, love you! *hearts*

[turtle-ai.livejournal.com]

I'd say it might be either Yama Pair or Ohno/Jun. More Ohno/Jun though, because the pain, the love, it's all there and it's so beautiful</>~ ♥

I love you so much mooaaaaar. ♥

[kailice.livejournal.com]

Sounds like maybe you wrote it with a different pair in mind? I did get a Sho vibe from it, but I think it's open to interpretation.

I was going to go see him in concert next January, but tickets sold out before I even had a chance to get them :(

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to deny that it's Sho, since I know what you mean about the Sho vibe, but it could be someone else, too, someone not in Arashi, that's all I'm going to say.

Ouch, I'm sorry to hear that :(

[kailice.livejournal.com]

Someone else like... MACHIDA? :D (well, that's the first "someone else" that comes to mind, and I can definitely see him fitting in. But you said you wouldn't say any more, so...)

I'll see him one of these days! *shakes fist with a vengeance*

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Machida, hmmmm...interesting...

I WANT HIM TO COME TO DENMARK, TOO!!

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

♥

[chietots.livejournal.com]

yama.. oh my yama.. thank you~

when i read: satoshi-kun i immediately thought of sho~

and im sticking to it.. just coz i love yama~ <333 and yes.. i am stalking you now for yama fics.. lol~ THANK YOU!!!!! <3

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

I love how the general agreement is that it's Sho. /seals lips

Thank you :)