Det' dig og mig for altid

[rikke_leonhart]

So I just finished a msn convo with my long estranged beta, R, yes, the ruthless, brutal one, and oh my god. He hasn't read my fics since before I delurked in Arashi fandom in...2008, and he told me he'd been skimming them recently, and he perfectly pinned down how I've been feeling about my writing for the past, uh, year, actually.

He said: "Rikke, your writing has improved, since."

I said: "Thank god."

He said: "Hey now. Your attention for details has gone up but also down, and I know that doesn't make sense to you at all right now, but that's okay. You'll understand. What really gets to me is, however, that your writing feels moody in a way it never was before. I don't know if you've been heartbroken since, or if you've fallen in love, or if you've lost someone, but your words are moody."

And okay, that wasn't really what I was expecting. I don't know what I was expecting, but that certainly wasn't it, and it just leaves me a bit off kilter, because I haven't actually really spoken to him since he moved and got a new job and a wife and stuff, and then he just comes waltzing in from the left and words how I've felt about my fics.

They are moody. I don't know why I never pinpointed that myself, it's not like I don't spend a lot of time thinking about my fics, but, uh.

Anyway, topic change, I don't care if you're not in Glee fandom, if you don't ship Klaine in the slightest, but THIS IS THE GREATEST FIC OF ALL TIME. Beats every single fic in any fandom out of the water by a mile. I'm still completely mindblown and I'm trying to word a comment that will accurately tell the author just how much I love this fic without sounding like a complete moron. Go read it and shower the author in love and rainbows. Make that Klainebows.

I'll go take care of horsy and then I'll be back to do something vaguely fic-ish. The suspense is killing you HUH.

Comments

[eufry.livejournal.com]

(It's rather strange that you hadn't noticed the feelings you pour into your fics. Wouldn't call it moody on my end, but there's definitely a pattern where you detail a lot of the insights of your characters, including their emotions. Maybe that's the kind of detailing that went up. /hides)

Imma read that fic as soon as I finish that queue of other fics bookmarked. 50k, I'll need at least two liters of tea.

Love you ! ♥

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

It's not about the fact that I pour my feelings into the fics, as much as how many different ones, apparently, and how I basically treat most of my fics like a diary.

♥

[eufry.livejournal.com]

Well, I'd already figured that. I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing. Isn't writing supposed to be cathartic ?

[nunuuu.livejournal.com]

Your writing is always moody, somehow. Hmm, maybe atmospheric is the better word, IMO, at least. Or perhaps, evocative, yet deceptively simple? Ugh, I'll stop with the adjectives/adverb now. In any case your writing just gets better and better, seriously. You do know I'm a big fan of the way you string words, right? ♥

*jumping on over to the fic you recommended*

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

My goodness, you always flatter me so ♥ I'm so thankful that you enjoy my works so.

I really hope you'll enjoy it - I teared up, full-on cried, giggled and gasped my way through it!

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

I do agree with your friend that your writing gets better all the time. You raise the bar each time. I just read your fic. And I thought maybe I'll comment a little bit here too.

You used the words 'cathartic' and 'support' and 'love' and 'network' in your AN. And yes you have been through so much over the last couple of years.

The writing you do is a reflection of who you are, who you are becoming. I wouldn't say 'dark'. Melancholic and atmospheric and most of all, with having a strong grasp of how people relate to each other, how close we hold people to our hearts, and how people drift away, drawn from observations and life experiences. You write with honesty which we can feel, you write with love we can feel and you write an understanding that we can feel.

I love your fics, because we can feel them. I love your fics because you have a grasp of language that spills with an understanding on how words should be, I love your fics because they have a reality to them that a lot of other writers can only dream to grasp at.

They are more detailed with respect to human inferences as you've progresses. I recall one of your early fics which I read, I recall it was about going through home, and how the home felt. And the stars of the fic were only implied similar to this one (as I cannot seem to find the one I was thinking of) and it was all about the minutae of the day, the home, the surroundings. But no less breathtaking. I think for me, the beauty is faceted, like how light catches on a jewel when you turn it this way or that, and how you see different things in the angle that it is turned, either mirrored or a different point of view. It is all you, and it is all love.

Something got lost in there somewhere ... teaches me that I shouldn't ever post verbose comments at a quarter to four. Long and short of it, however you write, it's right for me and I love it truly madly and deeply and I really don't care (it is after all ass o'clock in the morning) how stalkerishly freakish that makes me sound.

Aren't you glad I live half the world away, am happily married with children whom I adore. *HUGSNGCLINGS*

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

I really just want to hug this comment close forever and snuggle with it. I really, really don't know what to say. If I magically com eup with the right way to thank you for this, I will, I promise, but right now, I physically can't, because this is making me tear up.

And, you know, I am so happy for you and your kids and marriage, in ways that are entirely unrelated to fics, and I don't midn stalkers if they're as nice as you, or well, just you in general ♥

[i-am-zan.livejournal.com]

and .... OMG ... I found it!!! I love this fic so much!

[wordplay.livejournal.com]

I got a pingback re The Luckiest and I don't want to intrude, but I did want to let you know how much I appreciated it - thank you so much! *blushes* ♥ I'm really glad you enjoyed it.

[rikke-leonhart.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh, now I feel like an even bigger moron for not having commented yet. I've literally reread parts of it every day, and yes, I know I'm kind of pathetic, and I fefinitely should do my translations of the Aenid instead, but well. Fandom calls.
I promise I will comment when I've found the proper words :)

[wordplay.livejournal.com]

Meh, I'm just now getting around to responding to comments, because real life is this stupidly busy thing for all of us, especially now that school is back in session! But I'm delighted to hear that it's holding up to rereading - all I can see after so long is the seams in it - and if you ever find something to say, I would be all over reading that. How could I not be? Thanks so much. <3