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rikke_leonhartOh, and title is shamelessly stolen from the chorus of Lass Uns Laufen.
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The entire ride home, Nino hasn’t said a thing, hasn’t let go of Ohno’s hand, his hip, his thigh, smoothing his hand down to Ohno’s knee, everything he could reach from his seat. They hadn’t even been asked if they were going home together – that went without saying.
“Nino,” Ohno says softly, reaching for Nino’s fingers, but Nino is faster, his hands curling around Ohno’s hips, tugging him closer, and Nino is folding around him, tightly.
It’d been an accident – an accident that could’ve cost more than Nino is willing to let go of. One stage light not mounted quite right, and with one resounding bass note, the light fell, heavy and mercilessly. Ohno had jumped, almost falling off the stage, but he’d left the scene unscathed. The same thing can’t be said for Nino, though.
Nino is still clinging to Ohno, fingers closely holding on to a hip and an arm across Ohno’s back, his face buried in Ohno’s shoulder. He’s sure that Ohno can feel him, every inch of him as he presses closer, and Ohno winds his arms around Nino, fingers carefully dipping into the small of his back, one hand reaching for his neck.
“You alright?”
Nino nods, but it’s shaky and Ohno pulls back a bit, trying to catch Nino’s eyes, but Nino is already closing his eyes, catching Ohno’s lips with his own, kissing him breathless. Nino parts his mouth and Ohno lets him in. He lets Nino pull him along and they stand in the bedroom, Ohno obviously trying to see what Nino wants and Nino trying to figure out what he wants and what he feels.
“Just stay here,” Nino’s voice is hoarse and Ohno obeys as Nino slowly undresses him, sliding his sweatshirt off and then his t-shirt.
For a long moment, Nino’s hand hovers over Ohno’s chest and then he presses his fingers flat just above Ohno’s heart.
“I’m alright,” Ohno says quietly, intently, because Nino isn’t hiding his fright very well. “Nothing happened.”
Nino wants to deny that, but he clenches his jaw instead, continuing the careful ministrations of his fingers dancing over Ohno’s skin. Nino leans closer, breathing into the soft skin of the curve of Ohno’s neck, his lips ghosting touches that leave paths of goose bumps in their wake.
His fingers unbuckles Ohno’s belt, quickly and deftly, and when he opens the pants, he slides them down over Ohno’s narrow hips and urges Ohno to step out of the pooling fabric. Ohno does, no questions, and he stands quietly, waiting. Nino’s breath makes him shiver.
“It was no one’s fault,” Ohno reminds him gently.
That isn’t helping. “That doesn’t make it better,” Nino hisses, because everything would have felt better if he at least had someone to blame.
Ohno chuckles but he sobers when Nino glares.
“Don’t make a fucking joke out of it!” He hisses, but he keeps his fingers as gentle as he can.
“Nino,” Ohno begins but trails off before he can even start properly. There’s nothing he can say that will make this alright, Nino thinks and he holds on tighter.
“Just –” Nino stops himself, biting down on his lower lip and his fingers digging into the skin by Ohno’s hips. He trembles and pushes closer. “Just let me.”
Ohno’s eyes flutter closed and he nods.
Nino urges Ohno to lie down and Ohno does, silently watching, and Nino breathes, slowly, lowering himself down next to him, resting on his elbows before lying down completely. He crawls closer, nosing the hair at Ohno’s temple, pressing his face into Ohno’s neck, closer, closer. He kisses whatever skin he reaches, he touches every inch of skin with careful, intentional touches.
Ohno is here, he’s alive, he’s safe.
Nino feels himself shudder – the relief is so strong that he has to close his eyes, just a second, because he doesn’t want to miss any of what Ohno gives him. The room spins and he feels dizzy, but Ohno’s hands find his, hold him to the ground as his mind threatens to cross the brink of momentary madness caused by the choking surge of emotions.
He’s not kissing Ohno now as much as he’s breathing him in, and he feels that he should try to take as much as Ohno with him, into him, as he can. He needs to tell Ohno without the flowery words of his songs, he needs to show him he loves him. He needs to show Ohno that he worships him.
They never say it often enough.
He seals his lips over Ohno’s, cants his head and they fit seamlessly together, well practiced and familiar and he never wants to kiss anyone else. The thrill never fades, not completely, and Ohno still holds the power to make him shiver, make his toes tingle and every nerve in his body sing in anticipation.
“Nino,” it comes out in a breathy whisper in between their kisses, and Nino is convinced, finally.
“Just let me,” he murmurs in response. Just let me love you tonight.
Ohno lets him.
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Date: 2010-07-16 09:41 am (UTC)I don't think I can ever love you enough. This is so wonderful.
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Date: 2010-07-16 09:52 am (UTC)I love you so very much h♥
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Date: 2010-07-16 10:18 pm (UTC)I miss writing with you ;;__;;
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Date: 2010-07-17 04:27 am (UTC)Awwww, these boys!
I really like this glimpse at a fragile side of Nino- somehow, the reactions are so natural that I can't imagine he'd react in any other way.
You are really awesome. I should tell you that more XD
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Date: 2010-07-18 03:20 pm (UTC)I can't think of anything else to write
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